The emptiness... the hollowness.. deep inside somewhere give me memories of 10 years back.... do I experience the same emptiness... the same hollowness..even today? Well may be I don't know.. but yes I am empty.....
The pain through which you have gone, The suffering through which you have gone... was it really necessary?
Did that pain and suffering give any value addition by curing you and bringing back to my world? - NO.... then how is it useful?
Widow is my social status on the forms, but being all alone for these 10 years in my inner status....
No celebration of anniversaries anymore.... no more rituals or social functions which are all related to our so called festival celebrations or poojas... does that really hurt me? Yes I guess even though I am not at all spiritual or the one follow all those so called religion and festive related things believer.

Though I have come a long way in these 10 years, there are lots of things which are attached to you my dear.
I don't know what happens when people die, I don't know where do they go.... but for me there is a suffering, a struggle inside....
I have overcome it in my day to day life... but January month is always a painful journey for me....
Give me a strength dear, to face the things positively. Give me the power to make my daughter and me happy. Make me accept the things the way they come in my way.
But there is a bond and belonging with you dear. There is a closeness with you. There is a special sharing with you. Let's not change it and let's continue our journey together.